Giving in to voices

Yesterday was my second day back at work and it’s been pretty full on believe me !
Something different I noticed “I stopped to notice the voices ”
Extremely busy and just been anxious brings on numb head and voices they come and go .But last night actually late afternoon they were driving me intense crazy by the time I got home I could barely hear myself?  I was trying all I knew to keep busy but nothing was working ,later hubby called I was agitated and loud and crying to, hubby made a comment about me messing family time up but I tried explaining but not really telling him of the issues!
You see over years I’d rather bottle my stuff up tell no one and let them watch on,not caring a hoot in hell what they thought I had no control I was trying to control my behavior but really not well!

Later he arrived home was talking to me i kept asking him please I can’t talk  everyone at once, today he tells me this!
And honestly I felt something wrong  but fuck I can’t cope it gets to bad the voices and people trying to talk to me,yet alone new meds again that’s not working fast enough. …
This week has left lots of anxiety and new pieces, new pieces of the abuse I have to get out ..there’s no longer a thought to keep it to me ..I will finish were i began ,voices and all !