I wish I’d write when things are going great ,but when I’m in that space I can’t think of anything else than to enjoy every moment !
I’m currently working through my bouncing brain I’m off all meds nothing zero and it’s as if the lion has been let out the cage she’s wild no longer contained by medical standards. ..my psychologist has been away for a month and Friday we resumed mmm jumping up and hugging her was not a great idea just happy she was back except she never budged she became small and I felt embarrassed. .sorry I replied nice to see u!lol
I think J was a little overwhelmed by my different personality I told her and all she’s concerned about is my sleep so she’ll be checking mm in not worried I’m wanting to head straight into therapy now and redeem me ..find out why I respond so differently to life and make a different connection with relationships man this is gonna be a challenge I think it’s what iv been through during sexual abuse that’s altered my thoughts, perception and mostly feelings, my biggest been when I get incredibly angry I’m aroused sexually, my brain knows it wrong my feelings don’t this can be hard when I don’t even have a relationship with the other person and then hubby gets something that’s so not connected. .I really live to change this feeling dramatically. .
Therapy hit me hard after Friday just a reminder fuck I’m in the deep end. .baby steps!