I arrived at physio, last year I hurt my neck and on off I’m waking paralyzed from mid spine up to my neck and left shoulder. ..
Anyhow I was exhausted I never slept last night I eventually saw my bed at 6:30 am this morning iv been dragged into the depths of darkness and heavy is making light of the feelings!
Lee calls me to come in, and I go in immediately she sits down ..What’s wrong lisa I’m blown away is it this obvious? I’m ok thanks. ..I change the subject I think it’s getting better my neck but there’s preasure on my spine. ..come lie down she rubs my back and I cringe! !!!! Lis what is wrong I burst out crying nothing. .nothing?
I try breathe that feeling of trying to do it quietly I choke ..she gently starts massaging my neck ..it passes
She asks questions about my therapy she knows about my family trauma or just the hi jacking I try answer the questions sometimes Im even quite because I’m scared of crying. ..
But i think i cried more than I’d like to say here.
Honestly I’m very down and I know only i can help myself. …
But more honestly I don’t wanna know life right now …