Ptsd in all its glory

I was gripped by a flashback last night while trying to relax in my hubby’s arms..
It was physically debilitating and left me shaking – I immediately went off to shower and get myself grounded clonozepam was my friend to again.

It took me a little while to settle and reassure myself there was no threat and fall asleep. .the nights lately have been rough I toss and turn and seek hubby’s reassurance his there and I’m ok.
This morning I was  woken at 4:30 am with nausea and gripped in fear to the extent breathing has been difficult all day..I layed there and started to cry I hated my therapist I physically hurt and all I could do was just lay there and wait it out..
I tried some avoidance like gardening later on,but it was short lived I had to just lay with it !
Its been reminding me of something trying to move through me, last week at therapy I spoke about a release internally coming and going, now its screaming  to come out and involuntary im arching my back opening my stomach and throat as i lay there waiting and waiting. …

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3 thoughts on “Ptsd in all its glory”

  1. I’m so sorry šŸ˜¦ it’s just awful, but you are clearly working on some great strategies to manage your symptoms. I really hope this spike in symptoms passes. Do you know what has triggered this? Or is it just one of those periods? Please take special care of yourself xxx

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    1. Hi penny
      I just really think with all going on for me still I’m incredibly sensitive. .and just something as simply as cuddling up with hubby was a big enough trigger. ..
      iv woken again this morning and it’s there it’s letting me know slowly and gently!

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