I was gripped by a flashback last night while trying to relax in my hubby’s arms..
It was physically debilitating and left me shaking – I immediately went off to shower and get myself grounded clonozepam was my friend to again.
It took me a little while to settle and reassure myself there was no threat and fall asleep. .the nights lately have been rough I toss and turn and seek hubby’s reassurance his there and I’m ok.
This morning I was woken at 4:30 am with nausea and gripped in fear to the extent breathing has been difficult all day..I layed there and started to cry I hated my therapist I physically hurt and all I could do was just lay there and wait it out..
I tried some avoidance like gardening later on,but it was short lived I had to just lay with it !
Its been reminding me of something trying to move through me, last week at therapy I spoke about a release internally coming and going, now its screaming to come out and involuntary im arching my back opening my stomach and throat as i lay there waiting and waiting. …